July 7, 2013
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I just…don’t know.
When did I become one of those girls who goes through boys like tissues? I’m not supposed to be like this. I consider myself loyal. Even if it is just to a fantasy.
It’s this boy, then this one, then another one. I feel like I jump ship every other day and I don’t even know why. It’s very frustrating.
And I don’t think I want a relationship. Or even sex. I just like the chase.
I’m thirteen years old apparently.
Maybe this is just a phase. Does everyone have a period in their twenties when they regress to middle school? No?
I just need to focus on something else besides boys.
So. I’ve started going to parties on the weekends. It’s…different. I’m not used to having somewhere to be besides work and the gym. It’s sort of like having a life without actually having one and it can get a little confusing. I am definitely not used to be being invited to various events and asked what I’m doing on the weekends. I’ve been meeting new people and hanging out for hours, drinking or playing various party games with strangers. And it can be fun.
I wonder what my high school and college life would have been like if I had looked the way I do now then. I bet it would have been vastly different. And that just demonstrates how vain our society is. Depressing.It’s kind of sad that
America is “brave”,
But we’re so afraid.
