November 15, 2008

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  Yesterday was not one of my best days. Of course, I've had worse. But, I wasn't expecting a Friday to turn into a bad day.
  Once you like someone, you always will. I've said this time and time again. If you fell for someone once, you'll never be able to get over it, no matter what you try to convince yourself or how far you run away. Even if you start a relationship with someone else, it's always going to be there, even if it may not be on the surface. As soon as you see that note they once wrote, that picture you took or even that piece of wrapping paper, that same feeling in that one place comes back. It may not be as strong as you remember, but nevertheless there it is. And forever it will be.
  Last night was the fall play. I knew I wasn't going to be able to make it. It's difficult to make arrnagements for a ride home. Anyway, I didn't think it would bother as me as much as it proved to. I was sitting at my desk when I got a text. From him. He's so involved in everything and that's really all he talks about. I was fine all week -- all month, even -- whenever he talked about it. But, something about last night...well. I couldn't handle it.
  Memories came back to me. All of them. From the very beginning to the present. And I couldn't keep myself from crying any longer.
  He could tell something wasn't right and he asked me what was wrong. I told him I didn't know. The truth wouldn't be what either one of us wants to hear.
  I still have feelings for him. And I always will.

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