February 21, 2013

• Well, the dog in the office with me is snoring. That's about how interesting my life has been getting. 
  I think I'm having a permanent existential life crisis. Like, what am I doing? Where am I going? How am I going to get there? Do I want to end up there? Can I change where I'm going? Why am I going there? Questions like that usually keep me up at night.
  Speaking of sleep, I really haven't been doing much of that lately. I spend hours on the phone talking to a boy that I think I like but actually have never met in person. You know that dating site? Yeah? The one that I signed up for on a whim? He's one of the people who started talking to me on it. It's been about a week and half since I gave him my number. He's quite attached. Quite, as in very, as in a lot, as in maybe too much. A week and a half. Love? Good lord.
  When I have a problem, I don't tend to wallow and mope. But I don't try to fix it either. I just ignore it and pretend it isn't there. I do that with a lot of things, a lot of people. Other guy still comes over to talk to me, but never the other way around. Instead, I tend to try to ignore him and pray that it'll just go away. Go away. You're blocking my view of perfect guy, whom I still am married to. In my mind. I love you. Don't leave. Stay at work forever. I am a totally healthy human being.
  Speaking of healthy, I was doing pretty well. Eating fruits, vegetables, staying under my self-imposed calorie limits. And then yesterday came where I stuck an entire loaf of bread in the oven and consumed the entire thing in one sitting. Very healthy, very slimming. And so commenced my three and a half hour gym visit where I stayed on the elliptical for seventy five minutes and took an hour long yoga class. I still didn't burn it all off. At least I can run about an eight minute mile. It's impressive to me at least. 
  And that's saying something. 

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