November 19, 2010

• You're welcome. You wasted my time, too. All six years. 
  I know I'm angry. And I want to be. I've spent too much time forgiving and pushing myself to make everything appear to fine. I don't trust you and I never will. No male is worth trusting. They all have their own agenda, their own interests. You can't give them your heart.
  I had the only boy worth trusting. And I pushed him away. I had someone who was there and loved me and cared about me. He never lied to me or insulted me to make himself feel better. We may have not been a perfect fit, but no one would be.
  Every person is a puzzle piece. We're all different shapes and sizes. It's a big puzzle. But, none of us fit together without any effort. Our holes may be too small, the places where we stick out may be too big. It takes pushing, pulling and prodding to even get us to resemble two pieces fitting together. And even then, we keep moving, independently closer together or farther apart. So really, no one is anyone's missing piece.
  It was naive to think that anyone, especially you, could come close to that.
  It's not that I want too much. It's that I hoped for it. 

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